I CAN'T LET GO
AND YOU DON'T KNOW HOW I FEEL.
NOTHING SEEMS TO HELP: First and foremost, this journal is for me. I'm trying to make it more user-friendly for those poor fools who don't know what they're in for, but that doesn't always pan out. There are bound to be rants, randomness, and absolute shit cycles of angst and depression. So far, no one has had a problem with this. As far as a lot of this stuff goes, I keep it to myself. Just be aware.
NOTHING SEEMS TO WORK: I don't like to delete posts, but I'm secretive as hell so a lot of my posts are f-locked, custom locked, or end up "disappearing" only to be seen to myself. In other words, what is, is. Sometimes you just don't get to look at it.
NOTHING IS AS BEAUTIFUL: I do not really post fic on this journal anymore. This journal was and still is in completely disarray (it just looks pretty now) and I'm trying to restore it, but it's like trying to restore a notebook with all the pages ripped out. If you are interested in my fic and fanvids you can join or browse wretched_desire. 98% of it is open to the public, the rest isn't worth reading. I post fic there or on my AO3 account these days. You can follow me on tumblr. I reblog Thorki and Hiddles and other awesome gay things.
THERE'S NO HOLDING ME BACK
I'M NOT DRIVEN BY FEAR, I'M JUST DRIVEN BY ANGER.
Buffy, Angel, Marvel Comics (Deadpool and Avengers), Avatar: The Last Airbender, The Legend of Korra, Ghost Hunters, Supernatural, Doctor Who, Torchwood, Dollhouse
Our Lady Peace, Placebo, A Perfect Circle, Nine Inch Nails, Britney Spears (STFU), Alphabeat, Muse, Tool, Depeche Mode, Coldplay, Disturbed, Filter, OneRepublic, Snow Patrol, Sugarcult, Switchfoot, Ghost of the Robot, Within Temptation, Florence & The Machine, Adele, Ke$ha
I'M JUST CLIMBING UP SLOWLY
daefics.tumblr.com - my tumblr
Guardian - My AO3 account (fanfiction)
Guardian-Erin - My FF.net account
I'M THE ONE AND ONLY:
I currently write fanfic for my Marvel ships, Deadpool/Cable and Thor/Loki. I also ship Angel/Spike and Spike/Illyria. I follow Doctor Who and Legend of Korra.
THIS IS NOT MY LIFE
THERE IS NOT A SINGLE THING HERE I CAN RECOGNIZE.
THIS IS ALL A DREAM: I live in Maine, have always lived in Maine, and would always live in Maine if not for certain people that I want to get away from. I still have no idea what I want to be in life. Half the time I'm not even sure I want to be in life. I had some goals set and the further along I go, the more I'm losing my goals in life, and reasons to live. Like any story, there will be a ending here. I just wonder if my life will end up being one of my indefinable stories or a tragedy.
NONE OF YOU ARE REAL: I'm bad at keeping up with friends. Possibly the worst friend ever. I can drop off the radar for weeks, yet I'm always here, almost 24/7. Really, if anyone needs to talk about anything at all, email me. I can understand anything, and best of all over the internet obviously I can't judge. Don't spend a hard night alone. I do that all too often wishing there was someone I could talk to and pretend things were business as usual. It is not easy at all. Just fucking talk to me, and no, I won't expect anything back from you.
I'D GIVE ANYTHING: I'd give anything.
WAIT. WORRY. WHO CARES?
THIS IS WHO WE ARE. THE TIME IS NEAR.
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